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Ian Fleming’s ideas and life-view were familiar to one born into an ‘old’ family. I’m not talking ‘old’ as in money or aristocracy as in his case. No, simply that my parents were not Spring chickens when they had me and the age gaps between my brothers and I were not inconsiderable. My parents were from Fleming’s era. My father could not have been more different from him in so many ways, but yet, there were familiar strains to some of the attitudes. Besides which, my dad first introduced me to him and his younger, movie-star friend many years ago, now that I recall! It explained why I found his somewhat out-dated points of view familiar, strangely reassuring although at times disturbingly distasteful. Modernism has thankfully moved us along enough to know that such points of view are now unacceptable. Sadly, though, they still exist en force – listen to the “locker room” talk of Trump and his cronies captured on tape by the Washington Post.

My first contact with Ian Fleming was through this book “The Man with the Golden Typewriter” by his nephew, Fergus, sharing his letters and snippets of adventures. My intrigue built and I was soon contemplating what was really behind this man and his younger more active, movie-star friend. With Fergus’ book on my lap, I would sit over my morning cup of tea, on our back deck under the arch of grape vine, looking across our riotous raspberry canes towards our two soaring Jacarandas that always clung onto one or two cluster of blooms into middle summer. The maggies’ warbling and morning heat would ease my soul while Fergus would share more and more of his uncle’s inner thoughts with me. It wasn’t long before I wanted to know more about his uncle, and soon, my mild curiosity built into a mildly, stimulating obsession!

It’s genetic, you see. Being a Scot and daughter of an engineer, there was little hope for me to be anything other than a pedant! Meticulousness to the point where striving for perfection gets in the way of ‘good’ and then, being fatally flawed – aren’t we all (if we are honest), giving over to mediocrity when reality pushes in and dreams of perfection dwindle with ever-looming deadlines! It leads for a very unfulfilling life at times but at others, pushes one to find out more than perhaps strictly required. Being of such an (ever-so-slightly) obsessional ilk, I have a somewhat irresistible desire to find out about the person behind the projected persona, the culture behind a societal norm, and the wave in history that led to the perfect storm of human denouement … etcetera, etcetera (picture me in classic Yul Brynner ‘King and I’ stance here)! And so it was with Mr Fleming. Two-thirds of the way into his nephew’s book and I was searching for Ian’s non-fiction works – ‘Thrilling Cities’ and ‘The Diamond Smugglers’. The ‘Golden Typewriter’ was proving fascinating for a wannabe ‘orrfur’; the insights to publishing 60 years ago and the strong relationships he had with his editors but also with other phenomenal writers of his time. Somehow, it would be fair to say, if success was based upon who you know, then I am going to be skating on very thin ice to get anywhere! Fleming was surrounded by literary giants: Somerset Maugham who was a close friend, Raymond Chandler a latter life friend – Ian had the proverbial silver, no, Platinum, spoon in his mouth … but he also worked ruddy hard at making his work a success. Now the intrigue was alive again. I had only ever seen James Bond movies. What was Fleming actually like as a writer? His letters were great examples but, perhaps, I should get some of his James Bond books? But first let’s find out about his non-fiction.

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Haahhhhh. The End.

Haahhhhh. The End.

Ahhh, so it is here, as I knew it would be. The end. It has been a glorious affair for the last 8 months. I have been kept in his thrall by his cool, calculating grey-blue eyes, his daring-do, his romanticism that let me look past the harshness that would sometimes surface and jar against my sensibilities. Breathless in anticipation, I have looked forward to those stolen moments away from my family, to be just with him, well actually, both of them. Behind the debonair man with the black comma of hair falling onto his forehead in that endearing, little boy lost way that lured me into thinking that he needed me, there was his partner. Deadlier, more devastating, yet completely out of reach. The intrigue to find the threads of commonality that we all seek to enable us to understand another’s take on the world, bound me completely to these two men. But, like all things, I knew it would end and I would feel incomplete for a while until the hole they left in my life begins to become filled with other passions, interests. So now I remain. Quiet, contemplative, joyous for their unexpected intrusion into my life … hmmmm … all our lives really, for when I was with them, I was not with my family.

This selfish diversion started just after Christmas and the New Year when I decided that it was time to treat myself to a little something of what I would like most – a little time to myself! I had just surfaced from 6 months of pneumonia, pleurisy and secondary chest infections and the sun was shining rather pleasantly – not too hot but still deceptively dangerous for my fair, Northern hemisphere skin. Oh! for some ozone so that I can run around in shorts and Ts and not worry about being eaten alive by the sun, ravished for my audacity for just being there on the ground out in the open! And then I saw him. Fleetingly as I thumbed through a local newsrag. Ahah! Now here was something I desired. Unattainable. Mysterious. Yet where would I find him? It was a few days later as I strolled along Lygon St in Carlton that I saw him again. Just there in the window of Readings, one of Melbourne’s more famous book shops. He was looking at me, beckoning, taunting me to go within and be with him.

I stepped over the threshold … and the addiction began.

I was hooked – well and truly – hook, line and sinker as they say.

So, who are these men that I write brazenly about now? That I would publish openly to have had time away from my family to be with them? With whom I have blatantly had an affair – for that was what it was after all, to exclude my family and all others to private time with them. To think about them, muse over their latest actions – although I did share some of those thoughts with my other half to such an extent that he too became intrigued! Hahah! Yes, now you have twigged. My love affair has been with an author.  My present to myself was a book.

“The Man with the Golden Typewriter”

Letters from Ian Fleming to his publishers, loved ones and fans of his James Bond series.

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